leni‘s swagger

As this is just a way of expressing myself and a way of digitalising my memory, I wanted to share some of my recent writing on here.  Sean  was a text I wrote to skirt around an all-consuming and overwhelming romantic disaster that completely broke me in every way. I think it wasn’t the person, but much rather the feeling that caused me to just lose myself in my insecurities and the obsessive “ what-ifs .”. It’s a very direct text, so maybe I’m a bit fucked with that one by putting it on here. However , I think that using any creative tool as an outlet for your emotions is the right way to do it . Only then do you actually process it and look at the events from an outside perspective; here it is that of a writer removing any feelings and thinking about the perfect words to use. I don’t think that by writing about stuff I’m attacking someone or calling them out; instead, when I decide to write about something, then it’s not about that individual anymore but about what I can ...

💘 13 FACTS ABOUT MYSELF💘 What’s cooking, good-looking? As a true amateur blogger and someone born on the thirteenth , I feel that it is my duty to share 13 niche and probably embarrassing fun facts about myself:   1. I like men with massive, throbbing, and pulsing vocabularies. 2.  I fundamentally believe we should read Sylvia Plath’s Ariel  poems at least once a month.  Herr God, Herr Lucifer     Beware Beware.   Out of the ash  I rise with my red hair     And I eat men like air.   3. -And watch Taste of Cherry every two weeks. It keeps us sad and grounded , maybe even in touch with the rollercoaster of emotions we keep locked inside of us. 4. I want to read Ulysses before I turn twenty-one and fall in love at least 5 more times.   5. The first date I ever went on was with a girl, and I was a prepubescent, gauche, and painfully insecure 14-year-old who believed that I would never recover from the heartache she ca...

  What’s cooking, good-looking?  Introducing to you my top 4 films: 1. Paris, Texas—Wim Wenders My all-time favourite film ! It’s truly one of a kind. Some stupid boy once said, “ Oh, isn’t it just a love story? ” NO?! I mean, my path to discovering it certainly was; I actually remember it all too well!   A sick day in August where I completely lost my voice and was left bedridden, crying for some maternal figure to come and nurse me back to health. I was actually stalking people ( my crush ) on Letterboxd when I stumbled upon this film . My immediate reaction was: did Lana Del Rey write her song about this? (She didn’t)  I proceeded to watch it, did a little “ OHHH ” when I saw Sam Shepard’s name pop on the screen, and was left mesmerised for the next two hours. The quietness and the deeply emotional tone made me feel like I cut my veins open and was bleeding out right there in front of the screen. This feels dark, but I don’t mean it like that. It’s an int...

    What’s cooking, good-looking? 💭💞💫 Have I mastered the arts of blogging and the hieroglyphic-like mystery of this site yet?  No.   Do I hope to do so in the near future?  HELL YEAH! Will this blog just be me ranting about life and recommending the coolest stuff, so that everyone who reads this (Sarah) will think that I’m mysterious and sexy?  Probably. Alright, this should answer the most important questions so far. I’m really trying to find my steps here and make up a plan as I go along. It’s a no-pressure project that is supposed to cheer me up during the hard and depressing times of 1e…  And in the words of Will Swift:  All’s fair in love and poetry  Sincerely,  The Chairman of the Tortured Leni’s Swagger